We are like children building a sand castle. We embellish it with beautiful shells, bits of driftwood, and pieces of colored glass. The castle is ours, off limits to others. We’re willing to attack if others threaten to hurt it. Yet despite all our attachment, we know that the tide will inevitably come in and sweep the sand castle away. The trick is to enjoy it fully but without clinging, and when the time comes, let it dissolve back into the sea. ~ Pema Chodron starting my w
this is intended to be a short gratitude post. i have probably needed a good dose of thanks for some time. right now, i have a couple of friends struggling with general life issues and i have felt helpless as i stand by and watch. in one case i am purposely stepping out of the way and allowing her to find her way. in the other case, i am actively giving unsolicited perspective to help her sidestep her own emotions. in both scenarios, i am without ability to really change th
“You swore you loved me, and laughed and warned me that you would not love me forever.
I did not hear you. You were speaking in a language I did not understand. Never, never, I can conceive of a love which is able to foresee its own termination. Love is its own eternity. Love is in every moment of its being: all time. It is the only glimpse we are permitted of what eternity is. So I did not hear you. The words were nonsense.”
― Thornton Wilder, The Ides of March “never, never
“Meditation did not relieve me of my anxiety so much as flesh it out. It took my anxious response to the world, about which I felt a lot of confusion and shame, and let me understand it more completely. Perhaps the best way to phrase it is to say that meditation showed me that the other side of anxiety is desire. They exist in relationship to each other, not independently.”
― Mark Epstein, Open to Desire: Embracing a Lust for Life – Insights from Buddhism and Psychotherapy i
there have been stressful weeks recently. i have found myself feeling as if i am swimming against the current. i may have lost sight of which direction i am swimming towards. a tidal wave of whelm has left me hurriedly paddling just to move some air. what is remaining clear is that i am happiest when i am engaged in my work. my work is more enjoyable and the time i spend away from work is more focused as well. how do i do this every day- day after day? i guess it’s just pract
David Hockney Quote
Listening is a positive act: you have to put yourself out to do it.
David Hockney 3/31/14 i have just returned from a bi-annual check up. i have a good relationship with my doctor. he asks me what’s been going on in my life and how i am doing. i talk about some stress, some over eating, some depression, some things that are working well. he shares the results of recent bloodwork. i am expecting all good news. mostly it is, but there are reasons to have con
“In the sky, there is no distinction of east and west; people create distinctions out of their own minds and then believe them to be true.” i took my mother to see “heaven is for real” this last sunday. i was surprised that it touched me as i had expected it to be droll or calculated- which it actually was a little. but what shifted my impression was the simple way in which the film did not insist on a specific miracle but left room for the concept of miracles and the persona
“Your hand opens and closes, opens and closes. If it were always a fist or always stretched open, you would be paralysed. Your deepest presence is in every small contracting and expanding, the two as beautifully balanced and coordinated as birds’ wings.”
― Rumi, The Essential Rumi what a difference a day can make. i found myself feeling so trapped in a very bad situation today and i over-reacted. my reaction didn’t help the situation, nor did it really help me, but react i di
“It is important that we forgive ourselves for making mistakes. We need to learn from our errors and move on.”
― Steve Maraboli, Life, the Truth, and Being Free Written on these walls are the colours that I can’t change
Leave my heart open but it stays right here in its cage I know that in the morning now, I’ll see us in the light upon a hill
Although I am broken my heart is untamed still at some point it becomes necessary to surrender to the basic fact that what i see is w
“A family is a place where minds come in contact with one another. If these minds love one another the home will be as beautiful as a flower garden. But if these minds get out of harmony with one another it is like a storm that plays havoc with the garden.”
― Gautama Buddha here in the rocky mountains we have had a few weeks of tumultuous weather that has wreaked a bit of havoc in our daily lives. snow storms, ice storms, tornadoes, hail storms, thunder storms, and fierce and
“Monks, we who look at the whole and not just the part, know that we too are systems of interdependence, of feelings, perceptions, thoughts, and consciousness all interconnected. Investigating in this way, we come to realize that there is no me or mine in any one part, just as a sound does not belong to any one part of the lute.”
-Samyutta Nikaya, from “Buddha Speaks” i had the good fortune to travel to chicago this weekend for the frankie knuckles tribute at millenium park o
“god save me and watch over you” .. the president The Escape written by Allie Jones I’ve been riding a fine line
Between dreamland and consciousness I’ve been floating all alone
Halfway to shore I’ve been losing my grip
On all things real Time passes slowly
Like a melting clock I’ve been wandering
Across this divide
Wondering not where I will end up,
But wondering what I will escape Shapes and faces float ahead
The ever present reminder of actuality Boats are in the d
Mosh pits Annotated bare chest
Stage diving sky diver
Spray the crowd with cold water
Now it’s mosh pits and wet tits
I think I need a cold shower
African girl speaks in English accent
Likes to fuck boys in bands
Likes to watch Westerns
And ride me without the hands
Show me her passport
She’s on her own tour
But you’re beautiful to me
Wave em high girl to the sky
But you’re beautiful to me
Live in the clouds
Wave em high girl, to the sky
But you’re beautiful to me
Live in Joy
Live in Joy, In love,
Even among those who hate.
Live in joy, In health,
Even among the afflicted.
Live in joy, In peace,
Even among the troubled.
Look within. Be still.
Free from fear and attachment,
Know the sweet joy of living in the way.
There is no fire like greed,
No crime like hatred,
No sorrow like separation,
No sickness like hunger of heart,
And no joy like the joy of freedom.
Health, contentment and trust
Are your greatest possessions,
And freedom you
Ziggy really sang, screwed up eyes and screwed down hairdo
Like some cat from Japan, he could lick ’em by smiling
He could leave ’em to hang
Here came on so loaded man, well hung and snow white tan.
So where were the spiders while the fly tried to break our balls?
Just the beer light to guide us.
So we bitched about his fans and should we crush his sweet hands?
Ziggy played for time, jiving us that we were Voodoo
The kids was just crass,
He was the naz
With God given ass
We are all faced with a series of great opportunities brilliantly disguised as impossible situations.” ~Charles R. Swindoll as i maneuver through the last few hours of an excruciating day, i am reminded that is is rarely my way. this is usually the case, but somehow i forget this over and over. an i am certain i will continue to forget as that is really my nature. i worked a party until 11p in castle pines last night. i had carpooled with some colleagues and was not within my